Author: richmatt48

Our Inner Angst.
When you are sitting all alone with yourself without any distractions do you become restless, irritable and discontent, do you feel anxious, with a feeling of a need to escape? What is your experience of spending quality time with yourself, being emotionally intimate with yourself?
If being alone with yourself is an unpleasant experience that you need to distract yourself from, then you are suffering from a pathological condition that is destroying the quality of your life.
What is happening to you, is that the unprocessed emotions, repressed into the unconscious rise up into consciousness unless our minds are busy, and we are distracted from ourselves. We are driven to distraction and have become addicted to our distractions. We cannot be alone with ourselves, we must be distracted from ourselves, we must be busy, we must be entertained. This is the underlying human pathology revealed by the Covid pandemic. Covid did not create this mental health crises it merely revealed it to us. The underlying human condition in the west is a pathological (life damaging) state. We distract ourselves with work, tv, social media, and consumerism. We are constantly seeking attention and approval, which is merely one of our unmet childhood needs repressed into the unconscious, which will rise up into our consciousness if our minds are unoccupied.
How did this pathology develop? It started in infancy, in the first year of life, the infant lacks self awareness and experiences itself and its mother as one, without distinction. The rational, thinking mind does not develop until the second year of life and is language dependent, one cannot think without language, therefore one cannot process emotion without language. Therefore the first two years of life are a feeling experience. The infants biological and emotional attachment to the mother must be maintained at all costs in the first two years of life. The child’s needs for unconditional love, attention, affection and security must be fully met by the mother. This places a huge demand on women, one that is easily met if they have the full support of the community. Unfortunately very few women have this kind of support in our modern world, and women don’t have the resources to meet the genuine, authentic needs of the child, and as a result an anxiety is introduced into the infants emotional experience, a feeling of separation of its self and the mother is introduced before the child has the capacity to process emotion, and the infant feels it’s very survival is threatened. This all pervading fear is what lies at the root of our pathology. An infant suffering from a premature sense of separation from the mother is restless, irritable and discontent, which is exactly what you experience as an adult when you are all alone with yourself, without distraction. The raw unprocessed emotions of infancy rise up into consciousness if your mind is undistracted, and so what do you do? The only thing you know to do is to distract yourself from your discomfort, turn on the tv, go shopping, get busy and repress these feelings once again. In other words reengage with your addictions again. Addiction is defined as a pathological (life damaging) relationship with any mood altering substance or experience. Our pathology is driven by our need to constantly repress our unprocessed emotional baggage that we have accumulated throughout our life, starting in infancy.
If we don’t stop this process of constant repression our unconscious will deal with us, it will create life situations that recreate the unprocessed feelings of infancy in our present day experience. The unconscious is demanding access to consciousness so it can unburden itself and you can become whole.
The way out of this crisis is to go through the crisis and not run away from it. If you are feeling rejected, or abandoned, or alone, or unworthy, or inadequate in your current experience, know that your unconscious mind has created this situation or experience to gain access into consciousness. You must deal with your childhood trauma, or it will deal with you. Whatever negative emotions you are dealing with in adulthood are most probably grounded in childhood.
Remember if you cannot spend quality time alone with yourself without distraction you are dealing with an underlying pathological condition that is one hundred percent treatable if you are willing to accept treatment and make the necessary sacrifices for your life.
The first step is admitting you have an addiction to distraction and ending the denial. The second step is abstaining from your distractions. The third step is dealing with the repressed emotions of your life, you cannot take this step alone, if you have a truly empathic friend who has processed their own trauma, they can help you if you are willing to bare all to them and follow their example of recovery. A Twelve Step group like Emotions Anonymous can be helpful, other than that therapy can be helpful if the therapist has worked through their own recovery process. Recovery is all about recovering the repressed content of the unconscious and processing it in consciousness.

Dearly Beloved.
I promise to Love you purely and unconditionally.
I promise never to judge you, to condemn you, nor punish you, for you are my Beloved and I will never burden you with my worldly wants and desires.
I will not burden you with my expectations, or ambitions for you, but Lovingly accept you as you are, not as I would have you be.
To the best of my ability I promise to be a channel through which Gods Divine Love which is so full of understanding, empathy compassion, mercy and wisdom will flow through me and unto you.
The Divine Love that you once knew, the Love that gave birth to you, I promise to return to you, so that you may know true Love, Joy and the Peace that surpasses all understanding.

Your true Identity
Do not be identified with or defined by externalities but instead be defined by the Truth, your True identity, your True Essence. You are a Spiritual Being, a child of God. Do not be defined by your job, your title, your wealth or lack thereof but be defined by the truth of your being.

Men stop being men and become the Sons of God. Women stop being women defined by your gender and become the Sons of God. Stop being defined by or identified with the realm of impermanence, the realm of suffering and death, but be defined by and identified by that which is eternal, the indwelling Spirit of God that is your true essence and nature.

Has the Spirit of Christ been resurrected in you this Easter, or are you still persecuting the indwelling Spirit of Christ? Are you conscious of the Spirit of Christ within you, the Spirit and mind of God? Or are you living your life out of the mind and spirit of the ego? Caught up in and consumed by the material realm. Are you aware that you are a Spiritual being? Sent into the world to transcend impermanence, suffering and death and win the prize of eternal life in the Spirit. Wake up and rise up in consciousness to your True Self, a child of God.
The crucifixion of Christ occurs within us daily as we live our lives out of our ego, completely absorbed and consumed by the material realm. Living our lives divorced from our True Essence and only identified with our ego. This separation from our True Self is the source of all our suffering. All negative and painful emotions arise from the ego, your true emotional state is one of peace, joy and Love. Your True Self, your Divine Essence cannot feel pain, suffering and sorrow, it is detached from the material realm of impermanence and has no worldly wants or desires. Your Divine Essence has no ambition but to be, to abide in the all consuming Love of the Father.
Born into the world with an a priory knowledge of God’s unconditional all consuming Love we are met with worldly conditional love and our infant Soul is wounded by worldly love and our ego evolves out of this wound, and takes control of our lives and represses our True Essence. It is the repression of our True Essence which is the ongoing crucifixion of Christ. Christ consciousness is crucified, and so it is this state of consciousness that must be resurrected within you.
You are not your body, you are not your rational mind and its emotions, you are sons and daughters of the living indwelling God sent into the world to rise up in consciousness and become one with God, to fulfill and complete the process of Spiritual Evolution.
Your psychological and emotional health is totally dependent upon your Spiritual health. Your Spiritual health is determined by awareness of and degree of conscious awareness of Gods indwelling, abiding presence and Love. It is our disconnection from this Love that is the source of all our wants, desires and ambitions, which in turn are the source of all our suffering. We peruse worldly love because we have lost the feeling of Gods Love.
Love yourself, deny your egocentric self, and become conscious of the indwelling Spirit of Christ within you, your True Self. To be whole is to be One, One with God, the end of all suffering and the birth of eternal life in the Spirit.

May the Spirit of Christ be resurrected within you this Easter Weekend.
Christ did not die for our sins, he died because of them. And what is sin? Separation from the Spirit of the indwelling Christ. The Spirit of understanding, empathy, and compassion or True Love and Wisdom. And what is Wisdom? Knowing beyond reason and the senses, knowing beyond understanding.

We are Spiritual Beings, sent into the world to experience the beauty and joy of creation, not to be consumed and enslaved by it, but to abide and become one with it. We are meant to expand and incorporate all that is created into our being. This is the true meaning of non-duality, to recognize our oneness with all of creation, because of our principle residence in the realm of the uncreated, from which creation flows.
Separated from Love we fear death and this fear motivates all of our activities. We become fear based, anxiety driven beings, separated from our abiding true loving nature, our True Self. We are Love and nothing more.
The fear based separated self driven by the fear of death and the perceived permanent separation from the created realm and all that exists becomes anxiety driven. Striving to find love, esteem, admiration, attention, affection, and belonging, we seek power and control to compensate for our powerlessness over death.
Why oh why do we fear death? Because we have lost contact with our True Self, this is the primary sense of separation, isolation, and loneliness from which our fear arises. This indwelling, all pervasive fear amplifies our sense of separation and fuels the development of the egocentric self with which we become permanently identified with. This false self has no relationship with reality, but lives in a man made world of fear based illusion. We even go out of our way to create more fear based authoritarian political and economic structures to validate our fear.
We were born to die, to die to our delusions and belief in our false self. We were born in and held permanently by Love, but being born into a world governed by fear we quickly became separated from Love, and we to became apart of a fear based world of illusion. All the worlds mystics agree that we live in the world of illusion. A world created and sustained by fear. You were born to die, to die to self, and our self imposed exile from Love, embrace it and let go of this world of illusion and suffering.
God is Love and all things exists as a Loving thought in the mind of God.

Rest In Peace, the peace that surpasses all understanding, the peace that resides beyond the realm of the intellect, the peace that defies understanding, the peace that defies comprehension, detached from the realm of the senses.
The peace that defies comprehension is here now, it is within you, waiting for you peacefully. Enter in now, by by settling into the silence, sitting in perfect stillness.
Abandon all hope, wants and desires, for they are the source of all your discomfort and suffering. Hope is always rooted in fear and is the source of your anxiety.
Be still and Rest In Peace, letting serenity and tranquility consume you, releasing you from all your worldly cares and concerns, that you may experience the joy that comes with the end of suffering.
You are a Spiritual being, sent into the world to overcome the world and all its sensual temptations, and in so doing transcend death and awaken to the eternal life now.
“Seek and ye shall find.”, the inner journey is your true path, your only path everything else is pure vanity, and leads to death, death of the Spirit and death of your Soul.
Awaken to the eternal peace and joy now, die to self before you die.
One does not magically awaken into the Kingdom of Heaven after death, one must discover it and enter in now, in this lifetime. That is why you were given the gift of life, that is the true meaning and purpose of life, to rise up in consciousness, to evolve Spiritually and become One with all.
Everything you are seeking in this life, in the outer world is already contained within you, otherwise you would not know to look for it. Your senses and egoic mind have led you astray into the temporal realm of suffering and death, consumerism is the religion of the consumed, and money is its God. Rise up, walk away and journey within, that is where the true treasure abides. The Peace and joy that defies all understanding awaits within.

Forgiveness is all about our freedom, freedom from resentment, bitterness, anger and negativity. Forgiveness frees up our mind and opens it to the new experiences of today, as opposed to dwelling in the past. We are living in very difficult times, stressed out people often behave badly and it is so easy to take offense. It is so easy to feel victimized, abused, violated, insulted or injured by the insensitive behavior of others, but if we allow ourselves to dwell in the realm of injustice we become bitter and consumed with our resentments, we must learn to let go, and forgive them, “for they know not what they do”. They like us are trapped and enslaved in a world filled with frustrated wants, desires, expectations and ambition. They to are enslaved by their egoic, selfish, self-centered, worldly mind. They to are full of fear, and blinded by self-centeredness they cannot see how their behavior affects others. There is no point in being angry and resentful towards them, they are suffering enough already and the more angry and resentful we become the more we become like them. We must learn to let go and rise up in consciousness to a more elevated compassionate state of being. We must not let ourselves become entangled in the realm of injustice and insensitivity. “Be in the world but be not of the world”, rise up, let go, “accept the world as it is, not as you would have it be”. “Do not judge”, “do not resist evil” or you empower it and give it dominion over you.
You were sent into this world to overcome the world, not to be enslaved and consumed by it. How can you overcome the world when you are consumed by your frustrated expectations, wants and desires. If you truly want to experience, joy, peace, freedom and harmony you must detach from all of your worldly desires, especially the desire for revenge, that so often masquerades as the desire for justice. You must transcend the rat race, the dog eat dog, greed driven, egocentric world of man. You must rise up out of the realm of the ego and enter into the realm of the Spirit. You must learn to be still, and experience the inner presence of Love, joy, peace and contentment, but you will never have this sacred experience as long as you are attached to worldly affairs and concerns. There is the realm of the ego, that Fritz Kunkel called the Devil and there is the realm of the Spirit, you must choose where you want to dwell.
Your emotional state sets the tone for your worldly experience, it becomes the filter through which you see life. If you are full of anger and resentment that becomes the lens of your life and your experience becomes one of frustration and difficulty, and you become evermore frustrated and confused, you wonder why life is so hard, life is always hard when you live life from an egoic perspective, but you are not your ego, and you are not your mind, you truly are a Spiritual being who has become enslaved by their ego. Disempower your ego, learn to ignore its ramblings and choose to think higher thoughts, thoughts of understanding, empathy and compassion, for that is the essence of Love and you are Love, created by Love for Love. Let go of all worldly desires, all attachments, wants, desires, expectations and ambitions, for they bind you to this material realm, they bind you to a life of suffering and they rob you of Love, Joy, Peace and Harmony.
Jesus said “the Kingdom Of Heaven is within you”, and it is, I promise you, it is there. I spend several hours a day their, in the inner realm, and it is Heavenly, all that you seek in the material realm is already there within you, that is why you seek it in the world, sub-consciously you know you have lost it and so you are looking for it, but you are seeking in the world for that which is within. The material realm is the realm of the ego, full of injustice, let go, rise up in consciousness and discover the world within.
Close your eyes, be still, let go, look and listen, it’s that easy.